I was told by some of my friends during my recent mission trip to East Africa that I have a lot of good things to say. Later on, I was told by an amazing friend of mine that I should start a blog or something similar, to write down my thoughts. So, this is the beginning of my blogging expereince.
Honestly, I don’t think of myself as having very much to say. Sure, I’ve been through a lot in my life. I suppose anyone would have a few things to say when they’ve experienced some of the things that I have. But, at the same time, it’s just me.
“Who in their right mind would want to listen, or read, what I have to say about anything?” -That’s a question I find myself asking sometimes. Usually I’m too busy thinking my way through a situation I’m in, or contemplating my life, or I’m too busy trying to figure out how in the world I’m going to get through the next two days of work with only one pair of shorts to really stop and think whether my thoughts should be shared with other people. Truthfully, I don ‘t think the world should be exposed to my brain. Not that I have radical, perverted, in-human thoughts running through my head, but because many of my thoughts are a complicated mesh of emotions mixed with reason mixed with faith that, quite honestly, makes them impossible to convey in a way that someone else would understand it the way that I do. That, and I tend to use a lot of run-on sentences which no one enjoys.
Don’t get me wrong though, I do enjoy sharing my thoughts. I simply won’t express them unless I’m asked or feel comfortable enough with someone to share them, and I will almost never speak my mind in group settings. It’s interesting to me that I’ve become that way since, when I was growing up, I would talk all the time and got in trouble for it quite often. But, loneliness can change a person quite drastically if enough time goes by, and for a painfully long stretch of time I’ve had to endure such a state as loneliness around when I was 20.
Eh, that’s a story for another time! Suffice to say that I’m not in the habit of sharing my thoughts, so this whole “blogging” business should be interesting for my readers and myself.